money honey.

i haven't posted in ages because i've been working on this other post for approximately forever. except, i'm having trouble spitting it out. i don't really know why. so i'm giving up and moving on. maybe some day.

so i'm leaving tomorrow. i don't really really don't want to go. everytime i say that, which is often, i feel like a spoilt brat. like i should be grateful because hello, overseas trip! and saying that i've already been to Vietnam four times, therefore it is boring doesn't help the spoilt brat case.

but what no one gets is that, Vietnam? its not a holiday. There's family, a lot of it. That's the whole point. Because we're all the way over here, mostly by ourselves, nearly everytime we i go overseas, its to Vietnam, cos if there's that money to spend on 'holidays' then we better see our family. Which is fair enough. I've been overseas 4 times, Vietnam each time. Once we stayed with friends in Malaysia for a few days on the way to Vietnam, besides that i've spent a few hours in the Thai airport, and a bit longer than that in Singapore. But that's it.

this was the work christmas party, ps.

And half of the family pull you in all sorts of directions, hug you and wanna be your BFFL, but really, they just want you to you ask your parents for more money for them, because their kids are sick they want a facial. Or like, maybe you could give them your phone number in Australia, so they can call and ask you to send more money. Obvs, this is behind our grandparents bbacks, because they could easily get the number from them? And it really really gets to me. I don't know if they realise how hard my parents work over here. If anything, they are totally burnt out and deserve a real holiday. My dad was meant to come with us, but he's gonna be another 2 weeks because of work. And I thought we were past this.

So i want to go to Vietnam, but more like an embarrassing tourist. Because I've barely seen this country, and i hear its kinda pretty.

Also, 7 weeks is a really long time.